Is this not the summer of Shawn Mendes?!?!?
I went to the taping of Shawn Mendes’ MTV Unplugged and I was lucky enough to be in row G, which turned out to be like the fourth row. I was so close to him. It was incredible. I’m pretty sure he saw my dorky, blue, square glasses, but I wanted to make sure that I CLEARLY saw him, and I did.
I did the whole 1iota thing, where I got there hours earlier and waited in line until I felt sick, watched a bunch of girls who were the “prettier ones” get special wristbands to be placed directly in front of Shawn Mendes, standing room only kinda thing, and then sat pretty in a theater seat until Shawn Mendes came out and I almost cried. (I did cry, actually.)
He played like seven-ish songs, and decided to redo “Stitches” on the piano. He was talking to us in between songs and it was so cute. He said he had asked people before the show if his shirt was too tight and while they told him no, he felt like it was too tight but he wore it anyway. He took his shoes off to play piano and girls started taking off their shoes, too. Mind you my shoes had already been off since the third song because as cute as my shoes were, they really killed me this time. He sang all of his songs and it was incredible to be like five feet away from him, when only a month ago I was at the very very VERY back of the Staples Center!
MTV said they wanted to film the audience only, so we sang “There’s Nothing Holding Me Back,” “Bad Reputation,” and “Mercy” as a crowd, and oh my freaking goodness. Singing “Mercy” as a crowd made me cry. I looked around at the other people during the middle of the song and girls were literally swaying to the music with their eyes closed, waving their hands in the air, singing passionately, and it sounded amazing. It was everything I have ever dreamed about. I’m trying to find the words to explain my weird fantasy but I think it was just my dream coming true of being a pop star and performing for a crowd, only this time I was able to also sing with a crowd and it happened in real life.
If you read my last post about singing “Ruin” at the Staples Center and repeating the line “Do I ever cross your mind?” over and over again, you will know how it made me emotional. But my gosh, here, I had to sing “Mercy” at the top of my lungs twice and it was all caught on camera. In the midst of looking around at girls who were helping me live my dream and simultaneously so swept up in their own emotion for this Shawn Mendes song, my voice cracked and my eyes got teary, and I wept again to “I’m begging you for mercy, mercy, on my heart” with my hands on my heart and my throat scratchy.
Side note: I feel like… I could write this weird comparison of teenage fangirl life to religion, and use “Mercy” as a basis. Hmm. Will put that aside for another graveyard shift blog posting session.
But getting back to my emotional meltdown, that was the feeling I’ve felt about music (and I guess specifically Shawn Mendes’ music) this whole entire time. It’s like MTV asked the entire crowd to channel this feeling and dream that I’ve had forever, and I literally lived my dream inside the theater wearing the cutest dress from H&M, these trendy, nude-colored cutout heels from Amazon, looking amazing and feeling amazing and beautiful for being appreciated by MTV for my appreciation of Shawn Mendes.
I know I have experienced so many moments in the past year where I said “This is the best night of my life,” but you have to believe me when I say that this moment in time at the Theater at Ace Hotel in DTLA was the best night of my life. The best night of my life. The best night of my life.
And then it got even better.
I tried to find my friend the entire time, but she came late and we didn’t get tickets together. I tried to find her afterwards but ended up buying a knockoff merch shirt for $7 and ordering a shared Uber. This is when my years of internet stalking One Direction on Twitter and Miley Cyrus through fan websites came to life. It’s like I unlocked a bonus level of my life. The person sharing my Uber was UCLA student who ran an update account and was going to Shawn Mendes’ hotel, where she had met him the day before.
My life flashed before my eyes. I spent my high school and middle school years tracking down Miley Cyrus, the Jonas Brothers, One Direction, Big Time Rush, everyone, and learning about hotel meet-and-greet culture and update account culture. I have never run an update account culture, but I know how it works. This was everything I had ever wanted, and I was literally going to be driving by Shawn Mendes’ hotel. I knew I had to make a choice. I could get out and follow this girl I had only met that night, or I could keep going to my dorm room and only live half of this celebrity culture opportunity that I dreamed about as a little girl with access to the internet.
So I asked if I could go with her and she said yes. I admit that I had no plan besides hanging outside with other girls and just watching what was unfolding. If anything were to happen I had Uber ready and I would willingly rush myself back to my place. But I safely hung out outside a hotel watching tinted cars go by and weirdly hoping that I would be lucky enough to humbly come across Shawn Mendes, tell him how much his music means to me, and possibly take a selfie. If not, I would go home happy that I experienced update account life anyway.
It was a wild couple of minutes that turned into a hour, and no luck. So I called an Uber and ended up gushing to my driver about how much my life has changed in just one summer (I went to the VMAs), and felt really good about my life that night.
I’ll update this post with photos as I get my life together, clean my room, and transfer things from my phone to my computer.
Shawn Mendes is a true talent and I will never get tired of watching him perform! I’m so so so incredibly happy that he has been such a big part of my summer adventures because he’s so great. If you’re reading this and you’re a little put off by my decision to… I don’t know, follow a random person to a hotel in Los Angeles, I understand. But I also understand how social media culture and update account culture works, and it is really this untouched community on the internet that I legitimized, and it was safe, and it was a real, dream-come-true experience for me.
It’s 1:10 AM and I’m exhausted from all of this celebrity culture, but I love it so much. This was my dream as a little kid, and I’m finally getting the Los Angeles experience that I always wanted.
You can watch Shawn Mendes on MTV Unplugged September 8th!